🖤 sadly two weeks late to be topical for when people were talking about nonsexual kink, but ah well, here it is? 💔 feat. inappropriate use of a hairpin (probably not how you're imagining) 🖤 and villain monologuing at your ex/crush 💔 and he xuan being very convincing about having NO FEELINGS
🖤 happy wip wednesday. here is a little slice of one of my wips 💔 aka the scene i had in my notes as "elizabeth and barbossa dinner on the black pearl" 🖤 we enter into our first fanfiction misunderstanding, in this case about whether or not this whole situation exists so that shi qingxuan can be tortured for her crimes of ignorance 💔 if there's one thing he xuan can do, it's yes-and someone in the most dour way possible
SHADOWPLAY (or, WELCOME TO DARK FUCK PRINCESS ISLAND)
💔 beefleaf; CNTW; explicit 🖤 shi qingxuan finds herself within a cave palace at the edge of the world, in the custody of an old friend, to ends unknown 💔 aka a postcanon t4t gothic horror BDSM romance novel 🖤 currently at chapter 2/26 (help)
#rolandplayskotor I've been wanting to do a light side playthrough of kotor 2 but wasn't sure of which angle to take and I just realized that I could basically do it as a xie lian roleplay. banished from the jedi for his defiance in deciding to fight a war according to what he thought was justice and all that
#rolandplayskotor i missed capping the first bit of this monologue which was even moreso but, this conversation really felt like talking to twi'lek shi qingxuan
#rolandplayskotor apropos of basically nothing, sometimes i remember just how fucked up and twisted atton/exile gets if you play as a dark side aligned female exile. like it's femdom but in a way that's honestly too bleak for me to really enjoy but also i DO want to read fic about it. but i'm like. kind of afraid to.
and it's all offset by the just painstakingly elegantly brutal and condescending way that kreia talks about him... leading me to the sense that a DS (lol) exile would maybe agree with the judgmental nature of that read even if she disagreed with kreia's reasoning. and meanwhile atton is falling/being pulled, both organically and nonconsenually influenced by the force, into devotionfascination with her. just an amazingly dark dynamic. c4 utopia's milner/assistant but with less identity porn and a somehow even worse/more unilateral power dynamic
#rolandplayskotor last night on the verge of sleep pondering why atton works for me as a character in ways that carth doesn't, and settling on "atton seems like he's done gay for pay"
I AM in the market for random hualian fic recs if anyone has them. canonverse preferred, angsty/smutty both fine, fluff also acceptable as long as there are good character beats and it feels IC. h/c tropes a strong plus (this feels redundant to say about hualian though.) I haven't read very much tgcf fic in general all things considered, so don't feel like you can't rec things because they're too well-known, there's a solid chance I haven't read them