The restorative justice isn’t for the person who did harm to me. The restorative justice was specifically for me. I didn’t need to see the ones who wronged me severely punished on top of that. I don’t need both when what I want and need is peace.
So I clawed my way out of hell once again to get it… and I’d do it again if it meant preserving my ability to keep loving even when I’m subjected to actions I’d expect to be subjected to by someone who hates me.