Suddenly, it doesn’t seem so bad that I dumped the ex-partners that I dumped. Suddenly, it doesn’t seem so bad that I extricated myself from community with so-called friends.
It was all necessary; mainly because in my effort to find peace and healing, the people from my past were completely devoted to conflict without ever acknowledging it. Thus, I get made out to be the problematic one rather than the one that needs assistance with a problem.
If I can be blunt, I feel manipulated and used. My moments of vulnerability were simply canon fodder for their whisper networks. Here I am, trying to help myself and the people I looked to for support only helped themselves to whatever accrued more social currency for them online.